and then I realized, you bring up these subjects not to hurt me or infuriate me, but because you love me and don’t want to see me fail. And in return I get all offended and upset over nothing! Go me, successful again and doing the one thing I hate about myself, not listening.
I obviously wasn’t paying attention to God so He used the one person that I would listen to or rather argue with to get his point across. I am very loved and it has become painfully obvious that if don’t get my act together I’m going to become the cat lady. After tomorrow, there will no longer be the excuse that I have to study. It’s time to grow up. It’s time to start a real life.
School was comfortable, school was safe. Now it’s time to change things up a bit. It’s time to move out and find more exciting things out in the world. Why be afraid, right? God knows i’ve been very comfortable with life, i’ve had it all, living at home with my parents, working part time, going to school. it’s time to change up the comfort zone a bit. Being out in my internships, more than learning about what I would be doing for the rest of my life, I learned about other people’s lives and what they were doing to fill their lives. Apparently I wasn’t listening.
When it comes to listening to other people, I need to do more listening and less talking. I have a lot to work on. i’m just getting started. i’m at the bottom of the totem pole.
It’s time to start life. This is the time! So why am I so scared? What’s holding me back? If I like things that are complex why am I telling myself about taking the easy road.
I’m not a student anymore, it’s time to be an adult.
